Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Invincibly Vulnerable: Ending the Masquerade

Invincible. According to Merriam-Webster, invincible means “incapable of being conquered, overcome, or subdued.” Sounds pretty nice, right? “(Insert name here) the Invincible.” The cruel words and actions of others could not bring you down, even for a second. Sickness could not enter you, let alone infuse your blood cells with cancer. Car or plane crash? It’s like you’re wrapped in eighty layers of fireproof bubble wrap. Your biggest fears...vanquished.

Vulnerable. Merriam-Webster says that vulnerable means “Capable of being physically or emotionally wounded,” “open to attack or damage.” Let’s be honest. We all cringe at the sound of the word vulnerable. When we start to feel vulnerable, our survival instincts kick in and we wish we had the speed of a cheetah because we can’t run away fast enough. Being vulnerable is our worst nightmare. Who, in their right mind, wants to be open to physical and emotional abuse? Not me. No, I’d rather hide under a mask of invisibility.

The bright paint and sparkles that we spackle ourselves with are quite an unbelievable spectacle. The camouflage that we cover our faces with fails at the job it was supposed to do, for we can never be completely invisible. The moments when we pretend that everything's just fine, when it feels anything but fine. Poker faces and game faces are at their height, and silence reigns. Until we fully accept who God made us, the mask will remain in place. True friendships will not take root and blossom. You will never be the person you were created to be with a mask in place.

Sometimes, the most vulnerable things are the most beautiful things. The miracle of a baby bird hatching from an egg and the pure innocence of an infant. The smallest bird taking flight into the great unknown, and a toddler taking its very first step. The courageous battles fought by those with cancer. The unrivaled beauty of a world so full of extraordinarily individual animals and exquisite flower. The words “I love you” and every love story ever told. All of these things can be easily crushed or hurt, yet they are extremely beautiful and inspiring.

In movies, shows, and books we are all drawn to that one character. The one that is a bit of a mystery, who we are curious about, and we just can’t wait for their story to unfold. Sometimes it takes forever for a glimpse of vulnerability to peek through, but when it finally does, it is a magical moment. Understanding dawns and we see something about them, a hint as to why they do what they do and act how they act. It all makes sense now...or at least some of it does...and you begin to see who they really are. Perhaps, you even catch a truth about yourself or about life in general. You can relate to them. They overcame, and it is through their vulnerability that they become invincible.

It’s not being in control and having all the answers that makes you invincible. It’s not planning out every second of your life that makes you invincible. And no matter what you thought, it is not making sure no one sees the real you that makes you invincible. It’s accepting that you don’t have all of the answers, and knowing that you are human. Giving up control, overcoming fears, dreaming big, having the guts to follow God’s calling, trusting God no matter what, finding your strength in Him, welcoming friendship, loving and being loved, overcoming what other people think, that’s what makes someone invincible.

On my own, I am far from invincible. By myself I can’t do any of the things I mentioned above. I’d never have the courage to chase so many of the things I dream about doing. There is only one that I can trust with my fears, plans, friendships, dreams, and the most fragile pieces of myself - God. And He will use my vulnerability for His perfect purposes.

Our Heavenly Father makes us invincible in our vulnerability. He is a God that moves mountains, parts oceans, calms raging storms, cleanses us of our imperfect natures, and holds His hurting children in the most loving embrace imaginable. In those moments when we dare to be real with ourselves, venture into the unknown abyss God is calling us toward, risk everything for the people we love, and go out on a limb for those who are hurting, that is when the gulf between vulnerability and invincibility is closed. When our mask drops away and the masquerade has come to an end, that is when the chasm of dreaded, deadly vulnerability is defeated by God holding us in our vulnerable invincibility.

It is in those rare moments when we dare to remove the mask, stop masquerading, speak up, laugh out loud, and be our true selves that we have hope of showing Christ to others through our own stories, circumstances, fails, triumphs, and God moments. No more paralyzing fear of what others think, no more worrying about things that we can’t control. Just trust, as our Savior turns our vulnerability into invincibility, for His view of us is the only one that matters, there is nothing that He can’t overcome. He created you and you are enough. So stop hiding and isolating yourself. You are the only one holding you back. Embrace who He made you and end the masquerade.